Life was rosy and all was happy one day
Then things changed and everything I did was wrong.
Leaving me spiralling downwards, and loosing my confidence.
I didn't know what I had done wrong
And when asked, the answer was of course you know.
But I didn't and there was no explanation
I felt unloved, I felt betrayed I felt like I was the worst person ever.
What had I done, apart from help someone who said they needed help.
Little did I know, they were a con artist and played on people's emotions.
But the storm was brewing.
For 3 months the silence was unbearable.
Just a grunt when I asked a question.
Ooh God I prayed help me
But the answer didn't come at first.
One day I was given my marching orders
The most spoken to me in nearly 6 months.
Obediently I walked away, knowing if I didn't the physical pain would start
I didn't know where to go so I went for a drive to try and clear my mind.
And found a place to park up.
I was confused, I was angry. Communication was completely non existent.
But I had so many questions unanswered.
Love had gone, or was it there in the first place
I didn't know.
That night I felt unlovable, not worth anything.
And yet God was moving, but HE felt so far away
My pain was emotionally, unbearable
Though it never showed
God opened a door, which only he could do.
And I moved out of my comfort zone and into the unknown.
God was answering my cry, but He still had so much to do.
The hurt and pain was swallowed, but still remained
For years the anger was bubbling away beneath the surface.
It takes a God who knows you inside out to start the healing
A God who gently and tenderly takes the pain away and reminds you that He loves like no other.
And every pain or joy can be given to Him and He has the the healing needed
The storms of life are different for each one of us.
What one person can take in their stride, another will fall and crumble.
But one thing I know and one thing I am sure of
Whatever we go through either great big or small
We can bring it to Jesus, God's only Son
And He will heal, because of the blood HE shed for us
On Calvary so many years ago.
It is still relevant today, He is still waiting for you to ask for His help
And believe that He died for you, so that you could have eternal life.
He's waiting to be your guide through the storm
He's waiting for you to call His name.
He's waiting to surround you with his love.
You just need to ask.